Insecurities.

I hate febraury.

And i mean i really hate it. There's like so many problems and i don't know how to solve it. Or rather should i say, i don't want to solve it. Can I be tired? I mean really. Can I breakdown? I need a rest. Why must there always be problems? Must all humans be this way? Can't they just freaking behave well and do what they're suppose to do only rather than doing all sorts of things that they shouldn't?

She's my good friend. A good friend. I can't imagine what you did to her. But please stop it, i can't really control myself if you're too overboard. You might have alot of friends, you might have. But definitely, you have no true friends. Trust me. You wouldn't have one.

The way you treat someone, everyone's know. I believe in karma. I am soooooo into it. You will get what you're suppose to get one day. This is how you treat my good friend, one day you'll get it. Girl. :)

Please cheer up too, my dearest girl.

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Secondly, this will be totallllllly private. :)

Okay. To say the truth, i felt really insecured by you. I mean if i'm really with you, can you change? Just for the sake of me, will you? To a better guy or what, the original you. I might not know you in the past, they said you've changed. I don't know. If i'm really with you, things can be really worse. Firstly, it's him and then it's her and them.

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They doesn't like you. For what reason i don't know. They said you changed. So can you please change back to the original person? I mean secondly, i somehow do feel jealous, sad, angry, disappointed, frustrated or whatever when i saw you with them. Can you understand? You are too freaking close with them but not my good friends. I'm sad. Somehow i am.

I don't know do you really mean it. I can't feel the love, i don't feel you. I mean, can i really entrust my heart to you? You know it yourself what i've gone through. I'm really hurt. How long more will i stay in your heart, one day, one week, one month, or even one year? How long? Answer me yourself.
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Do you really forget her? Or am I just a subsitute?

Sigh... i never want to fall in love. Never would i want to feel jealous, angry, sad, worry, cry, happy, tired or whatever for a guy. You made me.. i mean you. S.

Somehow i'm afraid of the vibration from my phone when i put them on the bed or sofa whatever, that totally reminds me of you. Which i'm scared of. I mean i'm really afraid of it.....