This is going to be a very boring/wordy post. Kindly give it a miss if possible. ;)
It's been a year since I last _____ to someone. Or should I say, that was my first time doing that. I don't know where did I got the guts to tell someone that. But yes I did it. Everything was so fine, one year ago, today I think we're both probably enjoying those days. One year later, you got your new love, and I'm still stuck.
Not trying to imply anything, I hope you don't see this either. I guess you won't. But there's really a lot of things I can't forget about you. You wouldn't know how much i wanted to get you out of my mind, totally, completely, eternally.
But you're gone finally, not totally, but at least, not in my heart anymore.
I am afraid you might gone one day. I am afraid that you might change your heart one day. I am paranoid, I am sensitive, I am insecure, I am demanding. It's all because I care - I care about you. You might say it's all because of my previous r/s. Maybe?
I wish for a sweet love story. Are you going to fulfill it?
I got that urge to tell you a yes yesterday night, but no, i held it back . Because I'm afraid.
He asked me before:"How long do you think we can last?" / "Am I a guy who's gonna be your boyf in the future or just a guy who keeps you accompanied everyday by texting you everyday?"
So now, it's my turn to ask you. How are you going to assure me that whatever he did, you won't do the same thing again?
I'm very protective about myself. Maybe i'm even too over-protective towards myself. But sorry, I can't control. This is me.
Please make me the happiest person in the whole world.
tyvm.
xoxo.
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