Not anymore.

Aloha.

I'm here to do some serious blogging if not...... yeah. You know it.

Today's CIP day. Actually i'm quite looking forward to it........ A few days ago. Not anymore this morning. Not anymore after i went. I never want to go anymore. Feels so lethargic. Who can understand how i'm feeling? It's like you guys didn't told me anything, and everything went so smooth. Without me. It makes no diff. I know.

Sometimes i even wonder why do i bother so much. Did I think too much? But maybe i'm not. This few days happened too many things. I don't even wants to think about it. The thought of it just makes me go gugugaga. ;( I've so much to say but..... i don't feel like typing it here. Nvm. I don't want to cry now.

2E3'o9 bbq yesterday. Not bad. (: Hahaha, because there's this "god" who makes those chicken wings coooooookkkkeeedddd. :) Too bad, no picture taken. Friends came to my house too, to take angpow. Hehehes, pathetic. No la, it's that they accompanied me home. So goooood ~ Kimberlin house after bbq, was a nice one too. After that went for a stroll with my lg, miss her so much. :(

So long didn't walk together le... miss the past. Trained home alone. -_- I hate it. I swear i never want to train home ALONE so late anymore. Or even walking alone home with so many ______ under my blocks. Scary experience. Whatever. I did enjoy myself yesteday. Somehow i did.

CIP day.... Hmmm? Some residents are really friendly. We chit chatted and some still gives us foods ! Good or what? ^^ But some was really very irritating.... plain shit. -.- Just attitude only lor. We know you're sleepy but.... ah whatever. My mood just wasn't good you know. Hahahaha nvm. Free snacks and drinks by V ! Thankkkkkiiiieeeeeeeeeees :D

Oh manz oh manz, i'm feeling very sad now. Sorrrrrrrrrrrrrryyyyyy i know i shouldn't feel sad now. But i can't control myself. Maybe because i'm tired or what? Think of the thing? Or for i-don't-know-what reasons. This is just a very useless post. I don't know what am i blogging for.

Sighhhhh. tired of communicating. I think nobody even cares about me. At all. Nvm la... used to it already.

sometimes i even wonder why am i in this class, this school and having such life, such friends.... the thought of it just makes me sad, makes me feel like crying. you guys will nevr know, never understand..... sigh. maybe i am just alone. or what? not true one, never a true one. i'm sorry. i just can't mix with you guys. I can't get into the topic with you. sometimes i even wonder why you guys are laughing but i just can't laugh out loud with you guys when i'm like a crazy girl with reichin they all. i'm just not myself, so fake. i doesn't want. it's just starting of the year, why am i always having so much problems?? why can't it ends ? didn't i go through alot already? aren't you tired? If you're not, i'm. please stop sending problems to my house. i don't like it. for like seriously, i can't take it anymore. who knows one day i might just break down. i might really stop communicating with everyone. every single one. including you you and my family......

Well, i'm just glad that today's 20th. At least something that makes me happy everytime i saw that date. I'm 14years and 2months old. Wish me please.